The Beautiful Fictional Fantasy

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Avery

There lies my love,
Sitting still,
Waiting for me to come near,
With eager eyes and a stiff back,
Perched on the shelf.
Its gaze is transfixing,
Mesmerizing,
Alluring.
I grab him, 
And I peruse the pages as shimmering sunlight sifts through the window.
It is the seventh time I’ve met him,
Seven times too few.
He doesn't know me,
Yet I know everything about him. 
Can I speak?
A chance for mutual understanding,
The opportunity of knowing,
Impossible.
Though he is always there,
He is never there.
He is inside my head,
But on the shelf forever.
I lie back, and I know,
I have nothing if I do not have him. 

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